please don't disturb my life.. please don't be soo nice so the other people thought u like an angel.. but 4 me.. u like the WORST DEVIL in this world.. u get it..! ! 4 other people.. they must think i should be fren with u.. forgive u n forget those smelly memories with u.. but for me.. it sound like *hell*.. to forgive u not so easy like other people think.. until now, i don't get any ideas why u always disturb me again and again.. u not fell tired after this..?? since u enter my life back.. u gave me a trilion of problemssss... enough.. please stop done any stupid things.. it look like u still can't to forget me eventhough u have a *nice* fiance..
cukup2 la tu.. xyah nk speaking lgi.. abis berterabuk grammar aq.. hehe.. i'm not good in english.
klu org len tgk aq.. msti dyorg x pnah terpk @ terlintas dlm pkiran dyorg yg aq pnah dikecewakn.. coz.. sye cukup pndy menyembunyikn kisah silam sye slama nie.. tappppiiii... skrg.. sye dh x mampu nk simpan.. biar suma org tw spa dy yg sbnarnye.. klu korg kt tmpat aq skali pn.. korg pn x mampu nk lakukan pa yg telah aq wt.. ngn suma pa yg aq lalui.. mmg ammmaaaaaattt teruk... bla aq dh bangkit dri kekalahan aq dlu.. skrg ang muncul blik dlm idup aq.. for what..???????
to hurt me anymore.. to make me suffer bcoz of u..?? oh no no.. i don't let it happen again..!!!!
mcm mna keadaan aq dlu begitu teruk skali.. dy tipu aq hidup2.. aq mmg xpnah sngka pn yg dy akn berlaku curg ngn aq.. cbb tu org slalu pesan n aq nk korg ingt pesan nie slalu...
'klu syg sorg tu.. jgn terlalu sygkn dy.. mungkin satu ari nnti dy akn jdi org yg pling dibenci.. tinggalkn sdikt keraguan terhadap dy.. supaya klu jd pa2 nnti.. anda bley bngkit smula utk mulakan idup baru"
msti korg pn nk tw kn.. pa yg dy pnah wt kt aq smpy aq sush gle nk bngkit utk mulakn idup bru.. hnye da family aq, my best fren kt perlis. abg angkt aq. n ajmal syahmi.. mereka tu x pnah jemu2 bgi nsihat. bntu aq utk trus idup tnpa laki tk guna tu..!! thanks very muccchhh...~
dy curg ngn aq dh lma.. tp aq je yg x perasan ka bodoh ka pa bnda la.. smpy xley nk agak lgsung yg dy dh kapel len.. dpan aq.. dy sgt3 la bek.. pijak semut pn x mati.. tp.. sbnarnye tu suma nk kaburkn mata aq.. utk tutup kslahn yg dy lakukn.. aq idup ngn penipuan dy slama SETAHUN SETENGAH,..!!! lama kn.. msti korg pn pk aq nie bodoh.. mcm mna la aq ley x tepk pn bnda tu.. kami start kapel 28.10.2007. sehari before besday dy.. tyme tu kami bru je abis PMR.. kmi mmg ok smpy la aq diterima msuk kt mrsm.. aq pn pndah la ke sana.. bln 6 2008.. start dri tu la.. dy dh curg ngn aq.. tp aq xpnah pk pn akn jdi mcm tu.. aq pn lyan je dy mcm besa.. smpy la hubungn ktaor bertahan slama hampir 3 tahun.. smpy kuar result spm laaa... pda ari result spm tu kuar.. aq g jmpa ngn dy kt kgr.. blik perlis nk jmpa ngn dy.. dy siap gtw kt aq.. yg mak dy nk jmpa ngn bakal menantu.. wah2.. mmg dy tipu aq idup2 laa... padahal tyme tu.. dy dh kapel ngn awek dy dh lama... mcm mna aq tw dy dh kapel len.. aq tgk status dy kt fb pada 7.4.2010.. bygkn bpa lama aq idup ngn penipuan dy,.. in a relationship with ******
then mlm tu.. bley dy kol aq kul 2 pgi.. ckp psal bnda tu.. aq tnye dy mcm nie..
me : spa bdak tu.? kapel ka ngn dy..
he : klu kapel pn da masalah ka.??
me : klu kapel x pa la.. gtw je laa.. xyah nk tipu..
he : no reply.. end up the call..
klu korg jdi aq la.. korg pnas x ati..??? msti la kn.. tyme tu gak aq nges.. tp nseb bek ajmal syahmi da tyme tu.. aq gtw kt dy.. nges kt dy.. cbb dy ngah kja tyme.. thankkssss miee... aq mmg syg ang sgt3...
esoknye.. aq mintk brake ngn dy.. tp dy xnk.. aq bgi dy plihan.. sma da nk stay ngn aq @ pempuan tu.. tpi dy ckp.. dy nk dua2.. tamak kn.. ang dh tipu aq.. ang xnk lpaskn aq lak.. bodoh..!!! mmg aq ckp mcm tu kt dy..
hampir half of year aq idup ngn kesdihan.. smpy aq msuk uitm pn dy stil gnggu aq,. pa yg dy nk sbnarnye..?
dh wt mcm2 kt aq.. tipu aq.. mcm2 lgi dy.. ckup laa.. x perlu dicita..
dh wt mcm2 kt aq.. tipu aq.. mcm2 lgi dy.. ckup laa.. x perlu dicita..
dan yg pling aq x bley lupa... dy yg stat kcu aq dlu.. then *his crazy fiance* mrah2 aq x tntu psal.. kmi pnah gado bsar kot.. antara aq, ammar, laki tu n gf dy... gf dy maki aq mcm2 kt ammar.. tpi aq dh cita suma bnda kt ammar.. jdi xda msalah antara aq n ammar laaa.. then.. bru2 nie gf dy ley lak add aq kt fb..!!
dhla pnah ngata maki aq mcm2 then ngn muka x malu.. da ati nk kwn blek ngn aq.. tlg laa.. aq x suka kwn ngn org yg TALAM 2 MUKA .. meluat asanye.. korg nk tw pa dy ckp.. bnda lma xyah nk ingt la.. kpala otak ang..!! mmg la snang ang ckp mcm tu.. cbb ang yg mulakn suma tu..
ckup la tu.. pa yg mendorong aq tulis ttg dy.. korek blik rahsia yg aq tnam dlm2 slama nie..??
cbb my ex-bf contact me again smalam...!!!
dy kol aq.. aq kol dy blik.. then wt2 x dgr.. tpi tyme tu aq dh bley agak mcm dy.. then.. i gave his number to ammar.. n ammar call him.. but he didn't answer the call..!! cbb pa..?? tkut kaa..?? then mlm tu dy kol aq lgi.. pa2 yg akn aq wt.. aq akn gtw @ tnye dlu kt ammar.. ammar ckp dy da msj ammar.. tnye ammar spa.. tp ammar x reply.. cbb bateri fon dy dh abis.. then i text him.. let read it together.. :))
me : who is this.?
he : td no ****** no awk ke?
me : ne spa.? awk knal ngn sye kn. klu x msti kol sye dlu, sye knal awk ka..?
he : awak knal sy sgt3. btol ke td 2 no awk?
me : yup. tlg gtw sye spa awk. sye xnk men teka teki la.
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me : da pa awk kontk sye?
he : sja nk berkwan.. x bole?
me : btol ka awk nie *****? sye tk suka org tipu syeklu btol dy nk b'kwn. be urself k.
he : btol la.. sy org yg awk pnggil **** n yg pnah mkan mee yg awk bg wlwpn sy x mkn mee.
me : sye da soklan nk tnye awk. npe awk bek sgt nk kwn ngn sye.? u block me at fb right.? ur 'fiance' tw ka yg awk nk b'kwn ngn sye. tkut nek gla pmpuan tu nnti.
he : the one who block u in fb is not me its her, and i wanna be your friend, not more than that. just a friend.
msti korg pk aq yg terlebih2 kn.. tpi.. biar la org nk ckp pa2 pn., tu mmg kptusan aq.. utk pengetahuan awk laaa... sye x suka n x hingin nk kwn ngn org yg penipu mcm awk k..!!!
ckup la tkat tu aq malukn dy kt korg.. sori sgt3.. tu je aq nk gtw.. tlg jgn ganggu aq lgi.. aq dh bhgia ngn idup aq skrg...
p/s : thanks ye sudi bca luahan ati aq nie..~
